Giving my Power Away to the Mirror of Outside Authorities

According to some mainstream news outlets, Vice-President Biden has been “declared” the winner of the 2020 US presidential election. Biden has also “claimed” victory. In the minds of some, there remains a question of whether or not Biden was “chosen” by legally rendered ballots.

In my own reflection of reality, that question mark remains. Let’s stop there. What does that question mark tell me about me? In a quantum view of my reality, I take full responsibility for all aspects of my life, including the status quo around the outcome of the presidential election.

To most people, such a quantum view would be preposterous. After all, our 3D world is made up of solid objects and there’s so much around us that each of us has absolutely no control over, right?

Or is our world/universe actually rendered by some non-Newtonian laws of physics?

In my own world view, I believe we do live in a holographic universe in which each person’s outer world is orchestrated by a beautifully simulated construct. The classical Hindu religious texts call it “maya” or illusion or creation out of nothing or by imagination alone. Other esoteric religious texts discuss similar beliefs.

I believe the construct of our outer reality is created out of the composite of higher self, conscious awareness, and unconscious programming. Thus our outer construct is a mirror of our inner composite.

I am not a physicist. But I have read much on quantum physics. And I see more and more students of physics and of the intuitive and metaphysical arts talking about reality in the more malleable terms of a holographic paradigm.

I say “students” because “science” is forever changing, growing, and expanding. The politicization of science notwithstanding, scientific authorities worth their salt have to admit that they are always learning and reframing what they previously knew. Personally, I believe when we stop learning, we stop growing. When we stop growing, we atrophy.

In my own experience, taking fuller and fuller responsibility for all parts of my life is a work in progress. But when I have succeeded in doing so, through extreme self-honesty, then from a much more grounded self-view, I experience a much happier life.

So, what does the above outer-world question mark reflect back to me about my inner world? With outer as mirror, if the outer jury is still out, then so is the inner jury still out. I have to say that it means I’m still holding onto (perhaps muddled) inner judgment toward myself.

I haven’t fully forgiven myself for all the choices I have made in my life—consciously or unconsciously—about which I continue to hold inner judgment. I haven’t fully owned my life and my choices—even the unconscious ones.

Until I take full responsibility for ALL that has happened to me in my life, I will continue to project blame outward onto others when things don’t go as expected for me. The presidential election is the perfect scapegoat insofar as it didn’t go as I had hoped.

But even the motivation for choosing a side in the election came from giving my power away. Did I think Trump would be our savior in setting aright the corruption that I perceive in our world, and the levers of control perpetrated by people with more nefarious designs?

I see as dishonest the people that I perceive as corrupt. I distrust people that I perceive have nefarious designs. You might say, “Of course—who wouldn’t!” But the fact that I think those thoughts means that I have not unraveled my own inner denial of my own dark shadows.

In other words, I haven’t fully shined the light of my awareness and acceptance onto my own inner dishonesty and my lack of self-trust buried in my unconscious. If I had, I would not have placed an emotional expectation on an outer authority to fix what I deemed dangerous to my life or to society.

We place outer blame or we create a codependence of expectation on outer rescue when we haven’t completely released the inner “snags” of our contracted, unprocessed emotional traumas. Those inner dark snags are buried deep in the subconscious or unconscious. We keep them buried because allowing ourselves to feel them seems too painful.

The common alternative is to project them outward in blame or expectation.

So, I have work to do. It’s inner work as opposed to outer activism, outcry, trumpet-blowing, or complaining. The boon of that inner work is that my life will improve as I shine the light on my inner shadows, allowing their release. I will transform the entire experience of my life, jumping timelines to my more preferred reality.

The side benefit is that when more of us do our inner work, the collective reality will more brightly reflect that work. But the inner comes first. The mirror won’t reflect back my smile until I actually smile.